Last night I died and went to hip
hop heaven, also known as the Watch the Throne concert. There are no words to
describe the melodic amazingness that was that concert… it was EPIC! Everyone
asked me who I was going with and I happily said just me…it was AWESOME! I
think I am going to go to more concerts by myself; being alone allowed me to
get lost in the music. I do not know if it was the flashing lights and thumping
melodies playing in time with my internal beat or the marijuana vapors that I swear
they were blasting through the vents at the Verizon Center, but as I stood
there nodding my head, I was taken to a place I haven’t been in a while. For
a solid two hours I was able to escape and I was ecstatic about it.
I have found recently that when I am
struggling to express how I am feeling, along comes a song that lays my
emotions out like a road map. It is
funny how a song is there for you when you least it expect it. There seems to
be a song for every emotion I’ve gone through in the last few months. One song
in particular is Runaway by Mr. West. I love Kanye; I think he is a musical
genius. I love the risks that he takes with his music and I feel as though his
music is really a window to his soul. Anyway, Runaway is song to a girl or girls that he has wronged {he’s kind
of a douche}. It is song that I always thought described he who shall not be named and funny enough one day as we were
heading somewhere together he who shall
not be named said the same thing, that Runaway
sounded a lot like him {NEWSFLASH, ladies if a dude you like EVER says that
Runway sounds like him, you need to kick rocks FAST!}. Well Yeezy performed it
last night and I felt that he was singing straight to me; matter of fact he
told the ladies in the audience to leave that dude alone! I felt as though
Kanye punched me square in the face with his leather glove, mic still in hand
and was like “CHARISSE, WAKE THE F**K UP…let him go”. In that moment I realized
that it is time, I need to let it go. This person cannot consume me; he is
happy and not thinking about me. I have to find a way to make peace with him
and I think that I have.
I don’t want this blog to become my
love chronicles so with respect to myself and this space and my vow to let go,
I am deciding that this post will be the last one about he who shall not be named for the time being. I have other extremely embarrassing and
personal demons to tackle and then share with the blogosphere.
I love that music has the ability to help you go through things and this case is no different. Last night wasn’t just a night filled with flashing lights, high heels, and blazing beats; it was a next level experience. Kanye and Jay will roll into their next city and never know what they did for me but I am beyond thankful for them and the experience! No Encore, I’m out!
I have always said that music is a bridge between nature, logic, and beauty. I love it, because as you said, there is always a song for you when you need it. I'm SO happy that you got to experience this, and that you had the words to share it.
ReplyDeleteI need to get back to blogging. I need to put some of my feelings into words as eloquently as you do.