Was that 2012 that Just Went By?

o you know what time it is?! Year in review time! I cannot believe another year has come and is almost gone; I literally sneezed and 2012 was over. I have to say I am not dropping tears over here about it coming to an end. In fact the first part of 2k12 suuuucked boots but it redeemed itself in the 2nd half, so slap on the back '12' for that. I usually do a best/worst of "said year" list but since I decided to go MIA on this piece I will just do a year end review to get updated and move on forward!

My Love/Hate..Mostly Hate Relationship

es, I know I swore I would not sing about love again....especially if it does not exist but I can't help it, I had to take a moment to share some deep feelings that I have been having lately.

I am in a deep struggle right now, I am currently going back and forth, falling in and out of love. I look at pictures of how it used to be and how happy I was with you and I think how easily it could be to go back, except it wont be. That part of my life is over and I have to accept it; things can never be the same. 

I keep pretending that I am okay, I've moved on and that I am so much better now. I tell myself that I am just doing what is natural, but the truth of the matter is every time I get a glimpse of myself in the mirror I feel as though I look a little different, a little off. It is obvious that I am not the same and this relationship has changed me for life. I know I will learn to love this relationship again but today is not that day, in fact instead of lamenting about my loving feelings toward you I find myself just saying...

Oops I Did It Again

his blog is so typically me.... see what I did there ;)

Anyway once again I have gotten bored with something and thus lagged in it. I am pretty sure I owe this blog a dozen posts. A few from the most amazing road trip, a white water rafting trip in New River Gorge and some other cool stuff that happened some time this year. I have to be honest life got busy and I guess that is good but I also got tired of reading my own blog. Whatever that saying is about being your own worst critic is true and similar to the conversation that goes on about my tree stump like structure, I soon beat this blog to a bloody pulp.Recently I remembered though how much fun I had writing this thing, and though I share it with all of the interwebs, it really is for me. With that realization I pulled my bruised and battered blogging ego up and decided to just let my fingers do some tapping.

so here is how it is going to work, I am gonna do a fast update of things I've  done and share some pretty awesome news!!! Finally, talk about what I hope to do with my time in 2013.  

So, yea, I'm back...at this moment in my head, I just cued 2 Chainz. :/