My Love/Hate..Mostly Hate Relationship

es, I know I swore I would not sing about love again....especially if it does not exist but I can't help it, I had to take a moment to share some deep feelings that I have been having lately.

I am in a deep struggle right now, I am currently going back and forth, falling in and out of love. I look at pictures of how it used to be and how happy I was with you and I think how easily it could be to go back, except it wont be. That part of my life is over and I have to accept it; things can never be the same. 

I keep pretending that I am okay, I've moved on and that I am so much better now. I tell myself that I am just doing what is natural, but the truth of the matter is every time I get a glimpse of myself in the mirror I feel as though I look a little different, a little off. It is obvious that I am not the same and this relationship has changed me for life. I know I will learn to love this relationship again but today is not that day, in fact instead of lamenting about my loving feelings toward you I find myself just saying...

Oops I Did It Again

his blog is so typically me.... see what I did there ;)

Anyway once again I have gotten bored with something and thus lagged in it. I am pretty sure I owe this blog a dozen posts. A few from the most amazing road trip, a white water rafting trip in New River Gorge and some other cool stuff that happened some time this year. I have to be honest life got busy and I guess that is good but I also got tired of reading my own blog. Whatever that saying is about being your own worst critic is true and similar to the conversation that goes on about my tree stump like structure, I soon beat this blog to a bloody pulp.Recently I remembered though how much fun I had writing this thing, and though I share it with all of the interwebs, it really is for me. With that realization I pulled my bruised and battered blogging ego up and decided to just let my fingers do some tapping.

so here is how it is going to work, I am gonna do a fast update of things I've  done and share some pretty awesome news!!! Finally, talk about what I hope to do with my time in 2013.  

So, yea, I'm back...at this moment in my head, I just cued 2 Chainz. :/

First Unofficial Stop: RVA

ART ONE

My friends and I had planed, changed, re-planned this trip for months, so when it finally came to game day the plan was for us to leave DC, them to pick me up in Tyson's and drive all the way to Atlanta; things did not go according to plan...

East to West and Back Again: A Roadtrip Story

have to say that this was one of the things on my list that I thought wouldn't happen. It takes quite the effort to get four people on the same page and in one car for eight-ten days. 

This entire hair brain idea came from watching the food network, yea you read that right. Marge and I were hungry watching some show about ribs and I yelled out "I want to eat my way across the country".  Marge being the awesome friend she is said "LET'S do it!" and the rest my friends is history. We soon added two more X alums Daniel and Shajena and the journey began.  We went from DC all the way to California with stops all along the South. I saw amazing sites and met amazing people and my life is so much better for it.

 Because this road trip is such a huge part of my life and this summer I have decided to break this post up into a couple of smaller posts instead of an Odyssey of a story. The next couple of days will be dedicated to a portion of the trip where I can chronicle the journey in great detail. If I do not get to do anything else on my list this year I am beyond thrilled that I got to do this with my best friends. 

Nice Day for a White Wedding

y bestie got Married! .... three weeks ago :/ I'm late with this post. Once again, I haven't been moved to write. I need to work that out. Anyway on to the goods

After a year of planning, dress fittings, and lengthy emails about bridesmaid's duties,  the big day was here!  The weather was absolutely beautiful and it could not have been a more perfect day. I am so happy for Meredith she found a wonderful guy in Brady and I know he will take such good care of her. It was wonderful getting to see some old friends and being engulfed in Mer's family who I love and enjoy immensely. I felt great and looked great (hey Wedding hair) and just overall had a blast! Going with out a date was fantastic! I was running around way too much and having someone there to entertain would not have been fun for me or them!

The whole thing was so surreal just because Meredith and I have been friends since we were 14 and honestly did not talk much about our wedding days. We DID talk about how we thought we'd be single forever living in adjoining houses with dogs.  Her engagement was bittersweet because it meant an end of an era for me and now I have to share her with a new love lol! I have to say she did good and I can't wait to be aunt Char to some little bossy child of hers.

Now I am just working on getting myself together for this epic road trip that I am taking with some of my CY family as well as starting a new job, AND preparing myself for the Peace Corps!I leave next Summer Yikes!

Bridesmaids!